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just want to thank everyone for still coming to my little gallery here, it means alot to me to know people still come, look and like my work after all this time. i know i havent done much new, i have, but it's just work ive messed around with. maybe ill have somethin for show sooner or later, hopefully sooner.
on a more personal level...ready?
severely depressed the past 6 years of my life, over that period of time i neglected alot of my friends, family and loved ones and i regretably drug april through 3 years of it. she stuck by me through it all and put up with my childishness, aggressiveness and the shell i surrounded myself with. for that i thank her and she means more then the world to me, more then she'll ever know and more than i can even express. i love her today tomorrow and forever.
i can't help but tear up so much that it becomes crying, its been happening everyday for the past month and sometimes more then twice a day. writing that last paragraph did me in.
i have been drawing alot lately, art is my crutch sometimes, it got me through the first 3 years of my depression and i was able to express my love, fears and hopes through it. now im drawing again because im in a rough time. making music again. digital art may come soon i hope.
first 3 years of my depression i was a digital art madhouse, cranking out peice after piece.
the next 3 years i drowned in addiction with computer games which ultimately tore my life apart into big horrendous pieces, i know what you are thinking, how could it have been that bad it's just some computer games. it was bad, very bad if anyone ever asks me if ive done crystal method, id say yes now because thats how bad it was. its very dissapointing to know what ive done, the people ive hurt and what ive done to myself and especially to april. it is very hard to live with myself. it's very hard to express the pain i am in. it was worse then anyone here will ever know...here go the tears again.
i know this is the longest journal entry ive ever done. i thank you if you actually read it. i could go into even more detail.
and i thank all my viewers, for the favorites, comments and support. it's always brought light to my darkness.
sincerely,
jonathan
ps. april i love you
on a more personal level...ready?
severely depressed the past 6 years of my life, over that period of time i neglected alot of my friends, family and loved ones and i regretably drug april through 3 years of it. she stuck by me through it all and put up with my childishness, aggressiveness and the shell i surrounded myself with. for that i thank her and she means more then the world to me, more then she'll ever know and more than i can even express. i love her today tomorrow and forever.
i can't help but tear up so much that it becomes crying, its been happening everyday for the past month and sometimes more then twice a day. writing that last paragraph did me in.
i have been drawing alot lately, art is my crutch sometimes, it got me through the first 3 years of my depression and i was able to express my love, fears and hopes through it. now im drawing again because im in a rough time. making music again. digital art may come soon i hope.
first 3 years of my depression i was a digital art madhouse, cranking out peice after piece.
the next 3 years i drowned in addiction with computer games which ultimately tore my life apart into big horrendous pieces, i know what you are thinking, how could it have been that bad it's just some computer games. it was bad, very bad if anyone ever asks me if ive done crystal method, id say yes now because thats how bad it was. its very dissapointing to know what ive done, the people ive hurt and what ive done to myself and especially to april. it is very hard to live with myself. it's very hard to express the pain i am in. it was worse then anyone here will ever know...here go the tears again.
i know this is the longest journal entry ive ever done. i thank you if you actually read it. i could go into even more detail.
and i thank all my viewers, for the favorites, comments and support. it's always brought light to my darkness.
sincerely,
jonathan
ps. april i love you
RIP Hans Ruedi Giger
You have been an enormous artistic inspiration for me in my lifetime, starting from a very early age, you will be missed.
Soon
Over the 2 years since my last piece I've been working on a new piece off and on, publishing it here soon. With it I have a pretty good progression animation from start to finish, much like the one I did for Bellus (http://temp.atleastwedream.net/progression/bellus/index.html) but with more steps/smoother progression. I have another piece in the works that I hope to have finished by September this year. I've been drawing a lot more lately, it's really nice, planning on getting a couple of the new ones into my scraps section.
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been harder and harder to focus on my artwork over the past couple years, not like i come out with pieces all that often anyway though.
i have one piece near completion and hoping im happy with it by may. i have a couple ideas floating in my head that i want to start on as well...just need to find the drive.
my dream of having a job were i sit in photoshop and create all day is a hindrance to my personal work, the last thing i really want to do after being in photoshop 8 hours a day at work is being in photoshop additional hours after work and on the weekends...been like this the past 4+ years...
bums me out, but this is also making me foc
on reddit?
if not you should be...upvote my drawing!
http://www.reddit.com/r/diabloart/comments/lmylv/barbarian_by_cugar/
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- a shine throught your darkness
best wishes mate
best wishes mate